“My”graine
So I have welcomed each day for the past week with a migraine headache. It has happened so much in the last year that Noah can look at me in the morning and say “Daddy, headache, no music, quiet.” It is this painful, debilitating feeling, most of the time behind my right eye. Sometimes it has been so bad I throw up. The weird thing is that I have never had a migraine until after I had the gastric bypass surgery. I have tried researching it online and have not found that others who have had the surgery have had this in common with me. This leaves me with some questions…
Do I have a brain tumor? Did the doctor do something to my brain while doing something to my stomach? Do I need a new pillow? Should I get a massage? Is there some kind of relation between not eating as much food and not having the ability to fight these off? I honestly think it has everything to do with stress, although I’m not positive.
By the way, Mar is making me write this. She says that if I find some kind of outlet to get these things out, maybe I won’t have a headache in the morning.
Back to stress. Before surgery, my method of coping with stress was eating. It worked REALLY well. I was almost never stressed. The only problem was that I worked my way up to 300+ pounds. Other than that, it worked REALLY well. So now, I can’t eat when I am stressed. Honestly, I am not sure what I have replaced it with. Some people struggle with transfer addictions, but so far, I have not started smoking, drinking, beating my wife or children, developing sexual addictions or gone on major shopping sprees. I hate to think that I am going to have to deal with migraines for the rest of my life.
For those of you who think it is a coffee thing, it isn’t. I hardly ever drink coffee these days. The caffeine makes me light-headed. I have tested it, and it wasn’t the culprit.
So what am I stressed about? I guess mostly money stuff. I usually have this ridiculously stupid faith that we’ll be taken care of. Our current situation feels a little bit bigger than my faith this time around. I think since everything has been happening with our house, I have had these headaches 2-3 times more frequently. I think I am worried about what the next step is for our family and if I am going to be able to provide for them. As husband and father, you want to make sure your family is taken care of and that my problems are not theirs. Obviously our kids have no idea what’s going on, but I hate that Mar has to shoulder this too. And yes, we have faith that God is with us and will work this out, blah, blah, blah…but, you still feel the weight of life’s situations.
Anyway, my heart feels heavy with this stuff right now. I find myself feeling anxiety about going to sleep because I don’t want to wake up with the headache. So, maybe getting this out tonight will help me sleep better and wake up better in the morning. We’ll see.
Hey, Matt.
I get migraine headaches all the time. Apparently, it is a disease and there are things that can “trigger” your episode to lead to having a head ache. Some food choices are triggers and couple that with stress (which is often a trigger) – voila, you’ve got a migraine. Click on this link for more info.:
http://www.relieve-migraine-headache.com/migraine-trigger.html
I will be praying for healing for you and for the Lord to ease your burden….
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest….” Matthew 11:28
maybe you should stop running off your employees in Calvary Town. I would think that having someone new turn in a resignation every week for the last month would be a little stressful, too.
All kidding aside, i know how painful and disruptive migraines can be. I am so sorry. Mine are definitely triggered by stress. Well actually the stress leads me to eat too much sugar which leads to the migraine, you get the picture.
A few years ago my husband and i had a pretty substantial change in our income and i did not have a lot of faith that we would survive. A very wise person assured me that God would provide. It has been over 2 years and we are doing great. I know that God will provide for you, too. I’ll be praying that He is also encouraging you through this.
I don’t have any answers or suggestions for you Matt. But, I will be praying that God leads you through this time of trial in your life.
“Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
he’s the one who will keep you on track.”
Proverbs 3:5,6 (The Message)
boy do i feel your pain… (ha ha…)
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i get them- throw up, can’t speak, the whole sha-bang. totally hereditary. it’s NOT from NOT eating, darn it!
Hey, here’s an idea: maybe I should get bypass surgery and then I won’t have them!